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summer part i has been alright
summer part ii will be starting soon, and should be much better


open invitation to anyone who wants to come sit around my apartment and listen to records with me

oh
it's dark
the sun went down, the power's still out
oh
it's cold
my blood barely flows
oh
i'm alone
except for the sound of insects flying
around
they know
my red blood is warm still

memory can only take you so far.
understanding is believing.
kindness will give you everything.

PH 253  - Intro Modern Physics
PH 331 - Electricity and Magnetism I
MA 238 - Applied Differentiable Equations
MA 411 - Numerical Analysis and Matrix Theory I
UH 300 - Machiavellian History and Politics
CS 114 - Intro Computer Programming

STOKED

i mean, i don't do this that often but i want my friends to listen to team sleep
carter w first played them for me and i'm listening to them a lot right now
on my headphones, in my bed

blah blah blah
blab blab blab

1.
laying down on the ground will make you realize that you're on a planet.  this is not flat ground.  i repeat, this is not flat ground.

2.
thank you for your time and effort.

3. 
when i think about vectors, everything makes a lot of sense.  there's not a whole lot that's just in the x, y, or z direction. 

4.
i'm sick of every asshole with an anything.

god i wish i could
but i know i can't
so bring on
that cold sunrise

at one a.m. it snows on my face
as i walk around
from place to place

so now what's the big deal about beelzebub??
he was once just a kid like us..
and he grew up
to be just another scoundrel,
just another kid like us.




now, most of the time people speak to me about human things, i don't understand anything
and all i hear is the partial derivative with respect to x or gradients or saddle points

or iterated integrals

last night i was sleepwalking and dreaming i had huge breasts
but i was walking around with my hand down my underwear
and i was thinking 'i can't be a woman because i still have a dick'

i love to make a fool of myself in front of all of my
friends and then turn my shoulder so they can't
see my face or the expression i always try to
hold from my eyes and keep buried until
i get home when i can show myself in
the mirror how i look, distorted
and skewed and not at all
like what everybody
else thinks

This got the world spinning so fast
that the dark brown earth flung up
in the sky, and the birds finally got
to look the worms in the eye.
The meals that they ate so that
they could fly, now they're both
face to face and they're both so
alive.

i don't care about a lot of things
but this weekend that just happend and that is still sorta here was
the most beautiful experience that has happened to me in quite some time.

i don't care what you think///////////but this song, the funeral by band of horses/////is what would play if you filmed the past three days and played it in fast   ~~   forward so that it lasted only five minutes and twnty two seconds.



so now lets all count time in meters and distance in years.

happy valentines day, science.
i love you.

there's a static force
that's not moving
because we're not
changing it
now we won't grow so
now what should we do?

and most of what we say,
we shouldn't
and most of what
we do,
we shouldn't so
now what should we do?

god you are burning
me up
you are really
burning me up good
and i see you like a ghost
and you look
like a specter
dragging me out and
along the floor
and loosing me of
all my passion,
all my love for every thing
now what should i do?

his music it slows
down and warps
for him, how he
likes it to work
for him
but right now it's
not quite working for him
and its not quite
right for him
but he's not too
sure what is so
now what should he do?

i feel like i have a silver platter
that i refuse to eat from
and i feel like the worst
person in the world
sometimes

i don't know how well i did on my math test but i don't feel like i did as good as i wanted to and it's really really really bothering me

with the window
curtains drawn,
we hold hands
and fold them together
into small origami
birds that take
flight together into the
night together and
into the leaky
sky, that, to
things that fly,
is just a bath
but us here on earth
call it rain

i wanted to grow my hair out but i cut it yesterday
i wanted to grow a beard but i shaved it yesterday
i want to gain some weight
im at the telescope but its a goddamn waste of time because its raining
and i need to be doing work
and when i woke up this morning, i woke up early
but somehow i was still late to class

"Murderer"  - Low
at 1:43 when the bass comes in

"Queen of the Lake"  - Deerhoof
at 2:34 when the drums leave

"Autumn Sweater"  - Yo La Tango
at 1:15 when the bass comes in